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I managed to finally wear out my nail buffer. It's on the same level as using up your lip balm or all the ink in a pen without losing them so I'm proud, but also very sad that it's time to retire it. That being said, what a mediocre manicure!Lately, I've been feeling a lot more thoughtful about my art. Which is very narcissistic but still has value as an activity. (I don't know, I know artist is just a label, but it feels like self-mythologizing, doesn't it?) Maybe I'm just less critical of myself lately, but I think there's so much comfort in looking back to stuff I drew in 2021, or even 2016. There's this real sense of earnest effort put towards making something that I feel like I lost along the way. I am better now than I was then, but I'm also worse? Like, what used to be a huge effort to produce years ago is now me doing some sloppy lazy gloppy plop.Anyway, happy halloween.
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Happy Octobear, yall.It's been tough. I've been making weird arcane noises at my dog, but I'll never know if she likes me back...You know, it's been on my mind for a while now but I think I'm ready to say that friendships really do end! Like, you always think "well, if I just put in special effort, then it'll be like it always was" but life happens and it's just over no matter what. Okay that sounds so melodramatic, but it's just how it is! It's weird that everyone knows that you gotta tell people that they matter before they're gone, but no one really applies it.Sometimes, people come into your life and leave such a powerful impression that you remember them forever. But it's totally just one-way, isn't it? You can't really feel emotion so strongly that someone else can sense your vibes. (Unless you're actually smiling so big or dripping boogers crying, I guess!) Either way, I hope they know how much they meant to me, but if not, ahh whatever B)In other news, we're down 15 pounds! Wahoo!
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You know something's bad when you taste it and it makes you wax philosophical about the inevitability of death and decay. Anyway, I ordered fruit tea yesterday from a bubble tea place and they gave me... just something awful. I don't know, it's like they mashed up a bunch of old fruit and then tea'd on it. I felt so nauseous afterwards. The fruit inside tasted like onion too for some reason. Really fucked tea.Happy September, yall.
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I was making breakfast and I realized how stupid my pan was. Like, they put stainless steel rivets into the nonstick pan so that no matter what, I'd always get some stuck on egg to scrape off.Anyway, I must've pinched a nerve or something yesterday and I couldn't hear so good so I did the most rational action possible. That is, I just fucking pulled up a constant tone video on youtube to test how bad my hearing loss was. THAT BEING SAID-- if you have a fresh, no-cookies youtube and you search and watch a tone video, apparently that sends you to Russian youtube which consists entirely of BBLs wearing tights and rubbing up against everything in the gym and like 50 videos about "healing energy"
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Guess what, I did some website stuff today and now I'm very cool.I hate doing website stuff.I'm gonna be really hands-off with social media now. If they want me to produce content 🙄 then they should at least give some fake dopamine by having a more favorable algorithm, right?Literally had the same thought the other day loading up a gacha I stopped playing. You'd think they'd give some "welcome back" luck to get you hooked again, but I did a rare roll and got a bronze character. Honestly, if you're gonna abuse human psychology to get people hooked on your dopamine cycle, at least abuse it to the utmost.Anyway, I'm going back to the old internet and having a website no one will look at. I got intrinsic motivation, motherfucker, got intrinsic motivation for DAYS.
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